So I started up running again! Should probably do it earlier than around 2am but hey, I have the world to myself =D well, my sidewalk that is. Totally fantastic, need to get toned before...uhmmm, too long? yea, that's it =] Results to come, I'd LOVE to do another 5K. =] It's a goal.

P.S. I miss you

aeboyxx : BABIES
aeboyxx : lots of BABIES
lehewww : YES!
lehewww : FOUR HUNDRED BABIES
aeboyxx : MOTHER EARTH!

1 Peter 3:10 Whoever desires to love life and see good days, let him keep his tongue from evil and his lips from speaking deceit.

To another.

I wish:

you didn't make it so hard to forget you
you didn't keep making yourself wonderful and amazing
that you'd stay this way forever
that you wouldn't stay this way forever
you'd be more here and less everywhere else
you were present here, and not present there
things were better for you
I was in actuality and not my own fake reality

I'm thankful that:

I can be there for you
you allow me to be there for you
you trust me

I want: you. here. with. me.

Hebrews 13:16 Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God.

I'm gonna wish that:

I had gotten in with you
I had told you what I felt
I had had the balls to say what was on my mind
I hadn't let my overanalyzation and fear get in the way

I'm over the fact that:

you way to easily said one thing and did another
you're fake
you're clueless

I'm aware that:

you're two-faced
you didn't say what you meant
all that we ever talked about amounted to nothing
you didn't care as much as I did
I shouldn't have expected anything from you
I dove into it headfirst while completely aware that you were going to screw me over
you did
I didn't listen to what everyone else said, though while partially a good thing, I should have...
you, at first, were worth my time
you are now worth none of it
I am stronger from thus moving on
you are nothing to me anymore

I will not fall for you again.



Ephesians 6:10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might.

I miss Muskegon terribly, or at least the company and feelings I feel when I'm there. I should get a second job until september. That way I can get my apartment. =] It's early/late. I should sleep. PCz! =]

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Thessalonians 5:16-17 Rejoice always, pray without ceasing.

Whoops! Should definitely be asleep right now! Headed over to Muskegon today until saturday i believe. Gotta order uniforms =D and take care of some job hunting =] Here's hoping I have some luck! Say a little prayer and I'll be good. =] Off to bed.

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P.S. I have a Picture Blog now too.

Proverbs 15:1 A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

Whoops!

Sooo, been a few days since I've written. Haven't been able to get to a computer. Any whom. Came back down to good old sunny/very rainy LBV. It was sooo nice to take a break from home even though I've only been home about two and a half weeks, I just felt like I needed a break. As much as I love home, I realized I miss it down there. There isn't anyone to go out driving aimlessly and without any destination with, or drive down the strip and holler at hottie's with, or to have an amazingly fun party at which you kiss everyone at =P, or have a big group of people to just sit around with and talk about absolutely anything with. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my family and few friends I have back home, but I can't always do things like that with them. I always feel a strong sense of family and understanding when I'm there and I'm most definitely thinking that this time home is going to feel more odd than before because a lot of the really amazing people down there will finish their program and I may not ever see them again as much as I don't want to say it. So the next time I return, they won't be there. =/ but this trip was really good for me, and I'm happy I was able to go down. But now it's onto the real world and the decisions I have to make. in the weeks before school I still have to; get a job or two, find more scholarships, finish my FAFSA after getting a job secure and take care of getting my apartment, and then finally start school which is my next thing I'm really looking forward to =). Well I'm out.

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Proverbs 19:20 Listen to advice and accept instruction,
that you may gain wisdom in the future.

I'm soo excited to be here right now! I don't know what I was thinking when I thought I didn't want to come down here, I'm soooo glad that I did! It's only been like two days but I've been having soo much fun.Of course all with the people that matter the most to me here. I did, however get trashed last night. haha, as tragic as it was, it was a complete blast!!! I should probably sleep now though, waking up early with Edwin and then going to beach with him and Bumin! Definitely excited, first time I'll;ve been to the beach in Florida!!! Night!!

Hebrews 13:5 Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

A magical adventure for you! It's magic for you.

Sooo I found this song and oh my gosh, this brings back sooo many childhood memories!! No clue where in the world my parents found this movie (My Neighbor Totoro) but it's the cutest Japanese movie ever. It's hard to find, but I would suggest getting it, goodness, nevermind haha! I should get to bed, I'm getting up in an hour and a half to get ready, leaving by four thirty! Woo! Dad couldn't be more thrilled to drive to Detroit! =P Work from 1:45-7:45 today! Get an ID and I'm all set, and I get to stay with Edwin too!! I'm sooo excited!!!

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Matthew 5:7 Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.

My Neighbor Totoro -

..I know how I am, pssshh, YOU know how I am

Sooo just about got everything figured out for tomorrow through sunday!!! I feel soo much better!! Now to just figure out what it is I have to occupy my time these next five days. =] P.S. Hannah graduates today! I feel so old, goodness.

Proverbs 19:20 Listen to advice and accept instruction, that you may gain wisdom in the future.

Anddd, you were out...

So for some reason my flash drive that I've had for quite some time now has decided to not work. It's all good, it's not like every paper I've ever written along with my current updated resume is on ther. Ugggh, something will come of it, hopefully positive. Anywhom, I have mixed feelings about going to Florida now, I'm more than excited to work and see everyone I've missed for a couple weeks now but my only thoughts are that I feel like it's an inconvenience for me to be there, which I hate. Got a place to stay and someone to pick me up so it's all good. Everything with school and my apartment is coming together! All registered for school, Chef hooked me up, so I only have class M-W and then he said " you find a job or I put you to work for me." Ha, alright then Chef, crazy guy but he's my favorite. =] Just working now to save for the apartment until someone calls me about a job I applied for. Already have the security deposit,  just will feel more secure with a couple months rent in the bank in case I don't get a call back before school starts. But it's soo exciting! I've lived by myself before but now I'll be moving in by myself and actually have me to worry about, which I can absolutely deal with. Oh, and I can take Pheobe and Shamu with me which is nice haha. Just me, my lady, and my ginormous mini whale(if that makes sense). Well off to work on some more job applications and scholarship entries.  

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2 Samuel 7:28 And now, O Lord God, you are God, and your words are true, and you have promised this good thing to your servant.

John 6:47 Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes has eternal life.

Uhmmm, brownie melt, hmmmm...do you drink it?

Pfew. Last day of work for about a week. Sunny Florida, here I come, I strongly emphasize sunny because currently that's not a guarantee. Can't wait to go back to my other home, and see my family, which is going to be interesting because it'll be the last time I see many of them for a while, because we don't say goodbye, just farewell until we meet again, because we will meet again. =] Hannah's open house in a couple weeks! My mom wants me to make her a cake, which I still have no idea about what I'm going to do. Well, ok, I have a rough idea, but ugghh let's hope I can still be a pastry chef ;] Anywho, off to make some dinner and clean the kitchen. Loads of fun to be had tomorrow, working in the yard, mail a million things, and clean more in the house! Woot!

James 1:12 Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.